Thursday, September 1, 2011

Disappearing Act :)

So I've not been on here in awhile.  Just got caught up in everyday life I guess!  I'm still waiting on the IWO to be put in so Ava's deadbeat donor has to pay child support.  She will be 15 months on the 4th!  How time flies!  It seems like just yesterday I was in the hospital having her. 

Abi has been having some issues with focusing in the classroom.  So I've been having to deal with that drama with her teacher.  Her teacher would like me to have her tested for ADD...but instead of that, I've looked into the alternatives to medicine that can help with focus.  So I'm giving those a try before actually going to a doctor and them probably wanting her to be on some meds that could turn her into this zombie child.  I know that might not happen, but I want to exhaust all my other options before turning to that. 

I'm talking to a guy.  I've been celibate for going on 2 years now, and it's helped me get my head on straight.  I promised myself that I wouldn't do IT again until I was positive I was in a healthy relationship that I felt strongly would last.  This guy's name is Mike.  He's a cop, and goes to church regularly.  I really think that he could be a good influence for myself and my girls.  He has raised 4 kids on his own, and they all seem to have their heads on straight.  Well the 17 year old is a hassle...but what 17 year old isn't?!  So I know he has a good track record there.  I have high hopes for it, but it doesn't seem like we ever have time for one another..so that's something we have to work on. 

I'll keep you posted on that end...praying that I get Abi straightened out in school, and praying that this guy is "the one." 

Friday, July 8, 2011

M.I.A! Sorry!!

Soooo Sorry!!  I've been MIA for awhile!  I live with my parents right now, and they are trying to cut down on the bills and cut my internet!!  AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!  I'm going crazy without my internet!  I miss being able to check facebook whenever I want, and to check my bank account whenever I want.  But you know what?!  I'm BACK!!!  lol

I went to court on 7/7 for child support regarding my youngest daughter Avary.  Of course you know I show up with all my required documentation, because momma's not playin games.  It takes a lot of money to raise a child, and I didn't knock myself up!  He of course, shows up with the minimum that he can get away with.  Didn't bring the breakdown of his insurance like he was supposed to, and what does the judge do?  Grants him another two weeks to fax the information into the attorney.  HOW IS THAT RIGHT!?!?!  SERIOUSLY!??  I've been after this since LAST September, and they are still granting him extra time to get his sh*t together!  I really just wanted to donkey punch him in his man business, but of course, that would result in me going to jail..which as a single mother..is unacceptable!!  UGH!

Ladies...before you date a man, PLEASE run a background check on him.  If I would have known this deadbeat idiot had 6 other kids before then I would have realized he was not someone that I wanted nor needed in my life.  His arrears in child support would probably have shown up somewhere, and I would have realized he's a deadbeat..and FAKE!  That guy that they ALLOW you to see while dating is NOT the real guy.  They only let you see what they think you want to see..which is NONE of the important things.  Thank GOD I didn't allow him around my oldest daughter.  I really think he's trying to help overpopulate the world, and I did NOTHING to prevent that.  I love my daughters, but I allowed this man to put a world of hurt on me and my daughter.  I'm the one that will have to explain why her dad doesn't want anything to do with her.  I'm the one that is raising her without ANY help from  him, and lets not expect too much from the court ordered child support..you know, he gets credit for those other children that are older than her...so I am hoping for AT LEAST enough to cover the child care that I pay out for her.

Sorry, just had to vent there for a minute, and PLEASE..when you are drinking, do NOT do so with anyone you don't trust.   When you are too drunk to realize what you are doing, do NOT trust them to be the smart one and protect you.  They will not do it.

Peace out!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!

Happy Father's Day to all you great dads out there today!!  And a big Happy Father's Day to all the single mom's and dad's that are both Mother and Father to their children.  It is hard work, but it is 100% worth it!

<3 me

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Good Day!!

Today is gonna be a good day, a good day, a good day!  I keep repeating that in my head like a mantra.  Happiness is a choice right?!  If I choose to be happy, then all good things will happen, because that's the power of positive thinking.  At least that's what I hope! I had a bad night last night, so today MUST be good!

I did NOT want to get out of bed today.  Last night I was laying in bed and my 7yr old (who sleeps in my bed most of the time) would NOT settle down.  Soooo being the loving mother that I am, I reached over and bonked her on the head.  It was dark of course so I didn't see that instead of the top of where her head should have been, I bonked her in the eye.  She cried for a minute making me feel guilty.  I felt really bad!  Sooo we get up out of bed to look at her eye in the bathroom and it's fine..no redness, no swelling, no oncoming black eye.  We head back into the bedroom, through Ava's nursery, and Abi is dragging her feet.  I give her a push, and she pushes back, so it becomes a game.  I push her again, and instead of pushing back, she pushes forward and flings herself onto the floor, where she proceeds to hit her nose on the floor pretty hard!!  Squalling quite a bit more now screaming that it's bleeding (it was not!), and now I feel REALLY bad!!  Sheesh, I should get the "Mother of the Year" award eh?! 

After she calms down, she crawls onto her mattress (which is on my floor because she won't sleep in a separate room) and proceeds to tell me "You're the best mom ever, Mommy!" (can't pronounce R's still, sounds like she's from Jersey)  Thank God that Ava didn't wake up during any of this!!

I love my kids!!  Even when we are accident prone and I'm eaten up with guilt, they always make me feel better :)

It's all fun and games til somebody gets poked in the eye and about breaks their nose!!!  STOP HORSIN' AROUND!!  (especially in the dark!)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Where to begin?!

So I'm new to this whole blogging thing.

I've never really been into reading about other people's lives.  I can read romance and mystery, but biography and auto biography never really grabbed me and held my attention (I tend to be easily distracted :).  Then I realized by accident that blogging ISN'T just about lives!  It's about LIFE.  Life being ANYTHING that happens to you or with you or anything!  So many options here.  I usually have so many thoughts going on at any given moment in my head that I tend to be quite forgetful and once they flit through my mind, I delete them automatically as insignificant.  But....WHAT IF!  What if I had a brilliant idea or thought that just needed to be put to pen and paper, or in this case..to print?!  If I could help other people through my life experiences and keep them from making some of the same mistakes that I've made in my life, then that's a good thing.  Right? That's my mind set on it at least.  It makes me feel useful and needed! 

I have so much time on my hands at work right now without a CSR that I tend to read in all my spare time.  I'm looking forward to writing!  Hopefully I will get some followers that enjoy reading my quirky and sometimes crazy thoughts on my life.